Frustration

I have not lost anything since my fill. Of course I also have no restriction either. I don't eat that much. Protein shake in the am, yogurt mid morning, small salad for lunch and dinner varies. I have not been doing as well as I was before on my water intake but 3 days this past week I was in a training class all day and that makes it hard when you can not get up and go every 5 min. This week will be weird as well. I have to train with the funding managers because I will be stepping in to take over their teams while they rotate every 2 weeks over at Citi. YUCK I am NOT looking forward to this... I do NOT want to go back over to the funding side of the building... but that is where i am headed. :(
I have my next fill on July 7th so we will see maybe I will get a little bit of restriction after that appointment. I know this is normal and I know it takes on average 3 appointments to start feeling something but I want it NOW and since I can not work out really due to my dang hip and the pain I need something to start working!!
My hip has really been bad lately which I don't understand. I thought loosing weight would help it get better but it has really been BAD. I am stuck in this cycle.... it hurts so I don't want to move which doesn't help it OR my weight loss. The bike is still in the box it came in sitting in my entryway ( which is as far as I was able to move it due to the hip pain and how heavy it is ) I guess I am gonna have to put it together myself. Which will be another frustration for me ... I am NOT technically or mechanically inclined AT ALL!!! But it looks like that is the only way it is going to get put together. I have asked both Pat and Christopher to do it but no such luck
I am sick of the pain... last night it was so bad it kept me awake which it does from time to time. I just want to be normal again and be able to walk and do things w/o constant pain

She was not meant to be mine :(

For those of you that don't know I AM A MUSTANG FREAK!!! I LOVE 'em. My first car was a 1966 Ford Mustang Fastback GT 350. She was a beautiful blue with white stripes, Glass packs , air shocks etc. I LOVED her and still do. I would KILL to have her back ...... seriously. Anyway the car I traded in for my CR-V ,which is what I am driving now, was a 1997 Ford Mustang GT and while I LOVED her too she did not compare to my first love. To be honest none other will but I am hoping there will be one special gal out there who can come close. You know they say you never get over your first love. I  traded in my '97 on a new '99 Honda CR-V because my oldest son was getting so tall it was a pain for him to crawl into the back seat and I would not let him ride in the front because of the airbags. While I have really liked my CR-V there is NO comparison to a mustang ( except it is blue as well )
I am a single mom and financially it has not been in the cards for me to get a new car but I decided to do it! I was driving home from work last week and there she was sitting right up on the front row of the lot in all her glory!!! Guess what ? She is that beautiful blue with white stripes..... I drove by her everyday and would drool. One day when Pat came over her asked if I had seen her to which I replied "of course...DUH "  nothing much else was said about it and then this week he sent me  a link with her sales info..... that was it... I was on it like white on rice. I started seriously figuring out if i could make her a reality. At each step I kept trying to talk myself out of it. My last straw was insurance. I fig going from a Honda CR-V to  a Mustang GT my insurance would go up so much in addition to the gas $ that I would decide to wait a little longer. But when i checked on the insurance it was only going to go up approx $13 a month.  O.k. that was ssssssoooooooo doable. That day on my way home I went by the lot... yep still there :) I had planned to apply online that night for financing and then make an appointment to go drive her. I had an appointment to get my hair colored that evening and on my way home I drove back by there..... AND SHE WAS GONE!!!!!!!!  No where to be seen. I turned around and drove back by there. Had they just given her a new home on the lot? Somewhere she could be seen better maybe ? NOPE.... SHE WAS GONE!!!!!  The first thing I did when I got to work yesterday was call and ck on her status. I also sent an email and inquired. I found out someone had put a deposit on her and was in the process of getting approved for financing her, The dealer said I would know something by the end of the day.  I went ahead and applied for my own financing and got approved WHOOHOO a little later I found out SHE WAS AVAILABLE!!!! So I made arrangements to go by and check her out. Now mind you she is a stick and I have not driven a stick since high school WELL OVER 20 YRS AGO.... YIKES.. But alas it was not meant to be. She was a smoker YUCK!! the salesman said they had someone that could do a great job of getting rid of the cigarette smoke... ok moving on.... next prob she had some body damage. Nothing major and it could be repaired. Ok... I get to the other side and that door has a little bitty issue as well. Again, something you prob wouldn't even notice IF you weren't going over her with a microscope :). We took her for a spin.... OH she sounded lovely and made my heart race just like the good 'ole days!!! I was so excited, I was doing this... I was REALLY doing this. We got back to the lot. The dealer went to start the paper work , I'm sitting there admiring her out the window and it hits me .... YOU DIDN'T CK OUT THE TIRES!!! So I go back out to inspect... front tires brand new :) BUT I get to the rear tires AND THEY ARE BALD!!! Mind you this is a rear wheel drive auto. OOPS that's another problem. With that said I decide they need to come down off the price with these issues that are coming up especially the tires... when we got down to biz the dlr would not budge except to take $500 off the price and I could fix the door ding and replace the tires... SAY WHAT ?!? Oh HELL NO!!!! what kind of a deal is that ?!? Needless to say I had to drive away and leave her behind. Seriously I almost cried. But that is ok. I know there is another girl out there who is made just right for me.... I just gotta get out there and find her ;)

Cardio Baby

As you know I have issues with my hip and I am not able to walk for exercise. I need to start doing some type of exercise to help get the weight off but walking is just not the answer right now. So I thought a stationary bike would be the answer. I started looking around and found one that not only is a bike but it converts to a row machine!!!! I am planning to start with 3 days a week and work my way up from there. Hopefully that will speed things along and also get me to the point where i can also start walking. Pat wants to go to the local high school and walk/run the track. I can walk and he can run.... so we will have to see. There is also a park close to my house with a walking path and it would be nice to be able to take Ace for a walk. It would be good for me and good for him. So we will see

First Fill

Yesterday I had my first fill. It went really well and was super fast!!! I was in and out of there in no time. I have lost 5 lbs since my last appointment..... but I was hoping for more. Oh well , maybe next time. When I went in for my fill the radiology tech asked me if I was scared? I said " No" he then asked if I was anxious to which I again replied " no....needles don't bother me" I guess maybe most peeps go in there freaking out ? I went in and he took an ex-ray to ck my band placement. Dr Carter came in and had me drink some Barium and I got to watch everything do down. He said my band placement was right where it should be!! :) He then had me lay down on the table where he poked around for  a bit then told me i would feel a little prick..... no big deal... he put 2cc into my 10cc band. Then had me drink more barium so we could watch it and make sure i was able to get it down w/o any issues.... no problem and i was out of there!!!!  I had to be on liquids for the rest of the day.
 I can't really say that I feel any difference today. It did take me a little longer in the am to get hungry and I guess I felt full a little faster at lunch ?!? nothing major though and by the time I got home I was hungry again!! I had a protein shot and am drinking H2O. Pat and I are going to dinner and a movie tonight...so we will see how that goes. 
I did talk to a woman while in the waiting room. She asked me if I had my surgery yet and then when I told her I had she asked how much I had lost. I have lost in two months what she has lost in 5!!!!  But everyone is different. I guess I am on my way..........

Bandster Hell

When I first starting reading on LBTC I kept reading about "bandster hell" this is where you have your band but have not had fills or enough fills for the band to start working and you have no restirction and can eat what you want and pretty much as much as you want. The first several weeks after surgery I never thought I would feel hungry again BUT THAT HAS CHANGED!!! I have officially entered the flames of hell!!!! 

      I have my first fill sched for this Wed 6/9/10 which is exactly 2mos post op. I know that i will have some restriction after my fill but I also know it takes several fills usually to get to your "sweet spot". I have been in a funk over this because the scales are not moving!!!! I did really good last week with getting my H2O in but my eating is not as good as it has been and I am wanting things that I haven't wanted before. I need a little angel to come and pull me away from the flames

New Obsession

Since I have been working on losing weight I am also trying to take better care of myself in other areas again. This weekend I have had a "pamper Deb" weekend. I spent over 4hrs at the salon getting my hair cut and colored and also went to the spa for a body treatment and pedi :) But I have an new obsession....... Bare Minerals!!! I have been taking better care of my face as well. I have always been horrible about not taking my makeup off before I got to bed at night which I know is THE WORST for your skin. But I have started using Bare Minerals and I love it!! My obsession comes with the eye shadows... I can't even tell you how many I have bought in the last month. My eyes are very sensitive and I have a really hard time with eye shadow so for as long as I can remember I have worn the same 3 colors from MAC. But now I AM FREE !!! Every color I have worn from Bare Minerals has been fine and I have tried colors all across the board. I am lovin' it. My eyes have always been a favorite feature so I am enjoying being able to play them up. Also with their eye shadow a little goes a long way and it stays on all day. I have stopped buying eye liner because their shadows work as liner as well. I just dampen my liner brush and make a little paste with the eye shadow in the lid and wallah!!