Frustration

I have not lost anything since my fill. Of course I also have no restriction either. I don't eat that much. Protein shake in the am, yogurt mid morning, small salad for lunch and dinner varies. I have not been doing as well as I was before on my water intake but 3 days this past week I was in a training class all day and that makes it hard when you can not get up and go every 5 min. This week will be weird as well. I have to train with the funding managers because I will be stepping in to take over their teams while they rotate every 2 weeks over at Citi. YUCK I am NOT looking forward to this... I do NOT want to go back over to the funding side of the building... but that is where i am headed. :(
I have my next fill on July 7th so we will see maybe I will get a little bit of restriction after that appointment. I know this is normal and I know it takes on average 3 appointments to start feeling something but I want it NOW and since I can not work out really due to my dang hip and the pain I need something to start working!!
My hip has really been bad lately which I don't understand. I thought loosing weight would help it get better but it has really been BAD. I am stuck in this cycle.... it hurts so I don't want to move which doesn't help it OR my weight loss. The bike is still in the box it came in sitting in my entryway ( which is as far as I was able to move it due to the hip pain and how heavy it is ) I guess I am gonna have to put it together myself. Which will be another frustration for me ... I am NOT technically or mechanically inclined AT ALL!!! But it looks like that is the only way it is going to get put together. I have asked both Pat and Christopher to do it but no such luck
I am sick of the pain... last night it was so bad it kept me awake which it does from time to time. I just want to be normal again and be able to walk and do things w/o constant pain