Four more

I had another fill appointment on Wed 9/15 and I am happy to report I am 4 more lbs down. Yes it is 4 lbs but come on when is this really gonna kick in?!? He told me last appointment that probably one more fill and I would be at my "sweet" spot. Well, he said that again this appointment. I just know i am ready for this to start kicking in and not be trickling like it is. I know I know.... the blogs I follow of banders it doesn't just come off over night takes on avg a year and yes yes I know I did not put it on over night but still!!!! AAARRRRGGGGGHHHHH
      I have been doing good on riding the bike... but it doesn't really seem to be helping my hip like I thought it was at first. I can't figure out what DOES help!!!! But it is really old.
     I have been doing good at getting my H2O in this week as well, and since my fill I have gone back to concentrating on my protein. Went back to at least 1 protein shake a day and took cottage cheese to work yesterday. This week I am going to boil some eggs and take those to work for breakfast/morning snack. I really don't eat breakfast because i am usually too tight in the am but around 10:30ish I am usually able to eat something. I either eat a yogurt, cottage cheese or oatmeal.
    I am feeling bummed and out of sorts lately. Nothing seems to be going right. Work has been crazy busy since we bought out Citi auto. Working 6 days a week is no fun and the phones are insane and what is worse..... I don't have the answers to help my people. I try to get them but most of the time the peeps I report to don't have the answers either. It is crazy to me how this whole thing went down. On a personal level things are whacky between Pat and I. I just don't think I am really the person he wants me to be. I am not perfect I make mistakes, I get upset  but I feel like he would rather be anywhere but with me and when we are together I seem to do something that upsets him ?!?
     I feel like I don't really see Jojo and I am not doing a very good job at being a mom to him lately. Since my surgery I don't cook as much. I feel bad for him. It is even harder when he won't eat left overs. Not so easy to cook for 2 people and in a way I am just cooking for 1. I am trying ....
     I JUST FEEL LIKE I AM FAILING AT EVERYTHING LATELY