Emotional Eating

I knew I was an emotional eater but did not realize how bad until this week.  Work was HELL!!!! I almost walked out on Tuesday. If I wasn't a single mom I would have but I am not in a position where that is an option. To top it all off it has been a rough week on me emotionally because I have called off the engagement.  This was not something that I wanted to do, but we were growing farther and farther apart. I was trying but just didn't feel like i was getting anywhere. Anyway I have not talked to him since Sunday.  I have turned to food a lot this week as a buffer. The band does not allow me to do that anymore. I know this is a good thing and the reason I got it but sometimes it just freakin' sucks!!!!!! I have been lucky I have only had 2 episodes of sliming until tonight. It is Saturday and another weekend going by that I am not with him. I was fine earlier in the day. But as the evening came on, the time I would normally see him, I started feeling it come over me. Last night Jojo ( my youngest ) wanted Panda. I did not order my normal instead I got a rice bowl. I ate maybe a 1/2 cup and was done. I put the leftovers in the fridge. Jojo had a double entree so he was good and did not want mine.  Well I have been snacking at stuff all day. But due to the band I have still not eaten much. I tried to eat a two egg omelet at breakfast but i took 2 bites and knew I wasn't going to be able to get it down. So again I gave it to Jojo. So much for that. At lunch I had a cup of tomato soup and 1/2 of a grilled cheese eaten very slow and chewed very well!!!! I made key lime cookies with white chocolate chips ( I love to bake and it relaxes me for some reason ) I had 3 thru out the day. Which is not my normal. I know it is still better than what I would of done ( a 1/2 doz ) a couple hrs ago i had a cheese stick and then just tried to eat the leftover rice bowl. I only got down maybe 4 bites and i was chewing chewing chewing but I got stuck and I got stuck BAD!!!  Normally when I slim it is one time and then I am done the pain in my chest goes away and Debbie is back to normal. Well not tonight!!! It took about 8 times and the pain still lingered. I am usually the loosest in the evenings and can eat more then. But Stacy has also told me that when your stressed you stay tight so I guess that is it. Plus I got a fill on Wednesday.  I have lost 4 more lbs !!!!!! I text Pat on Thurs and told him but I haven't heard anything from him. This has contributed to a lot of what I am feeling. I know when we last talked on Sunday he said he needs to get his head together but I feel like i have been totally and completely forgotten.
       On a good note besides the 4lbs lost. I tried on a dress this week that I haven't been able to wear since I was working at McDavid approx 12-13yrs ago. It is a size 14 and I could get it on!!!! I wouldn't say I am to the point of being comfortable of wearing it out in public but I GOT ON A SIZE 14 DRESS !!!!! I will have to get jojo to take a pic of me in it so i can post. I also ordered a size16 jean today. Before I started loosing I was wearing 22 sometimes a 24/26 so that is AWESOME a NSV ( non scale victory ) But like I have mentioned before sizes are so crazy!! For instance right now I am wearing a size 20 shorts ?!?!?! But the are the regular denim no stretch type.

Ok I will try to be better about posting. I haven't been doing a real good job lately but really on the weight issue nothing really has been going on..... toodles